Uncontrollable

You're the first and last thought of my day.

Probably, that's why I'm restless when I wake up.

My mind still thinks about you even during my sleeping hours.

How could you evade my mind without my permission?

All these feelings, stirring and stirring inside

I hope you feel responsible for that.

You belong in my future now.

When you slip my mind even for a sec,

I shrivel because I get scared.

You maybe are miles and miles away from me.

You maybe are a million times away from me.

But I know I'll find you soon.

Better yet, I know you'll find me soon.

Get here as fast as you can,

Because all these thoughts,

All these feelings,

They're starting to get uncontrollable by the day.

Trabaho, where are you? 

Be my four leaf clover.

Your voice is my favorite sound. <3

Who am I?

I am more deadly than the screaming shell of the cannon.
I win without killing.
I tear down homes, break hearts, and wreck lives.
I travel on the wings of the wind.
No innocence is strong enough to intimidate me,
No purity pure enough to daunt me.
I have no regard for truth, no respect for justice,
No mercy for the defenseless.
My victims are as numerous as the sands of the sea,
And often as innocent.
I never forget and seldom forgive.
My name is Gossip.

-Morgan Blake

Heaven's Postman

Honestly, I kind of feel sad that I don't have anything to do for the rest of my days now. I was plan-less before, now I think my plan-lessness doubled up.

But thanks for a movie I watched, I now know what job to look for.

What if this guy shows up and offers you a part time job for 20 dollars an hour? Lol, I'll gladly take it without any doubt...even if he introduce himself as an angel.

I was recommended to watch this movie entitled "Heaven's Postman." It's a Korean movie about a guy who made a deal with God. He was in coma and while being in that condition, he works as a postman delivering "appropriate" letters to heaven. He sorts out letters that could only be sent to heaven.

The postman couldn't be seen by anyone except for those who still yearn for their lost loved ones. There's this girl who lost her lover, and she couldn't move on. She sent hate letters to her lover about why he left her. The postman fell in love with the girl. The girl fell in love with the postman. Oh boy, I'm not really good with summarizing, so you can just read the whole summary in this link.

So, I found this movie really sweet and easy to watch. Most Korean movies are like that. That's why I love watching them. They make you feel good inside.

Lucky, isn't she? :)

However, that wasn't my favorite scene. And that's not a lie *wink*

Anyways, here's my favorite part (for real):

I always find old people still being in love with each other very romantic. I cried a little when the grandpa thought her wife cheated on her. Oh, such pain. Not that I've ever been cheated on before. But hey, just the thought of it really makes me sad. And then, when they meet in heaven, and grandma was waiting for grandpa, it reaffirms that she really loved him very dearly.

This scene makes me feel happy inside. I hope that when I get to heaven, I'll see the people who climbed up heaven's stairs before me. I suddenly missed my bestfriend and first inaanak, Abog. 

Gosh, I miss you so much. If you were here, you could have seen your baby sister grow up. She's very cute and cuddly and funny and I'll take care of her and be her bestfriend the way I've been to you. Wow, I'm crying right now. I missss you so much and I still wish you're here with us. 

Though I know you're in a safer, more peaceful place now. I love you. And you'll always be remembered. Wait for me in heaven, okay? :)

Heartstrings

Hello, free time. Hello, lazy hobbies. Hello, Korean dramas. Lol.

Wow, today I might find the drama that I might possible hooked into. Heartstring! :)

I loved You're Beautiful and two of the stars of the said drama are the leads to this new Kdrama. I wasn't a big Yong Hwa fan in the past, but he really looked cool with his annoying, rude, cold character in this. Actually, anyone annoying, rude, and cold in dramas looks cool to me!

However, I think I have my favorite character in the drama. This one:

He's sooo adorable. Hahaha. In reality, I'd go for a nerdy type than the popular jock. So I'd take this one, thanks. :) Plus, he's hungry all the time! Suits me. :DD

I never liked traditional music, but maybe this will change my mind. I especially liked the scene wherein Park Shin Hye's group played traditional music and then Yong Hwa's band played the rock version of it. Coolio.

For some weird reason, this drama reminds me of Goong (my ultimate fave!). Maybe because Yong Hwa's character's name is Shin and he's in love with a ballerina.

Hope I won't get tired watching this! <3

We don't talk anymore.

I wanted to write about this yesterday, but I was so sad I couldn't think straight. So yeah, the clouds in my head have already cleared so I think I can pursue my writing today.

Not that it will be any better today than before. Lol.

Two nights ago, I dreamed of a friend I used to have back then. We used to talk a lot. We shared secrets. Most of our interests were the same. We laughed together. We dreamed together. We do stuff together.

But things happen, and since then, there wasn't any "we" anymore.

There are so many people in my life I've seen and met. Many people I've ridden a jeepney with. Many people I've exchanged hi's and hello's with. But out of all these people, who will I continue seeing? Knowing? Talking with?

I've always been so distant and afraid of letting myself into a person's life. But I guess I'm wrong in living this way for a long time. I've seen people come and go. Maybe if I had not lived this way, I could have kept all those valuable people in my life.

Gah~! Emo much.