Freedom

Things change, people grow.

I never thought it would be this easy. I am jobless now.

I got my job a day after graduation. Fast eh? I lost it quite faster. I don't know if I'm happy about it or not. Right now, I just don't feel anything. I'm happy I have parents who are very supportive of me. They encourage me and their words make me feel like I can get any job in the world if I want to. I wish it's true, though.

So what do I do now. I got free hours. Lol.

Ahhh. Ang lungkot.

Sobrang lungkot.
Mamamatay na yata ako sa lungkot.
Ayoko na ng ganito.
Ang bigat sa pakiramdam.
Ang lungkooooot.

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Oh, pain.

"People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain." -Jim Morrison

I am pained. Really pained.

Promises

I'm still a little girl. All along I thought I was strong, but the truth is, I was very vulnerable.

The first day of July the heavens cried. And so did I.

Ugh. I'm starting to hate my life.

It's officially July.

Time sure travels fast.

It's been more or less three months since I graduated from college. I'm still here--with no plans, no sense of direction, and nothing new on mind. July, July, I need you to inspire me.

I better straighten up my life starting today.

I promise to:

1. Wake up early later. Maybe 6 or 7 AM.
2. Finish the whole write-up I was supposed to finish yesterday.
3. Start the lay-out for the booklet tomorrow and hopefully finish half of the pages.
4. Write a sensible and remarkable resume that will get me hired in a decent company.
5. Stop checking my Facebook account every five minutes of the day.
6. Stop doing delaying tactics just to drag on my working hours.
7. Stop eating junk food.
8. Stop watching too much drama.
9. Stop staying up late at night.
10. Stop drinking too much caffeine.
11. Get a haircut. (People think I have extensions on already.)
12. Have a medical and dental check-up before my health insurance expires.
13. Save up money for future use.
14. Tutor students at least two hours a day for additional income.
15. Read my Bible, pray everyday.



There. I hope I can do all these things in a day.

So help me God! <3

Maybe the universe is telling you something.

My total awww moment of the week:

I died when he said "I love you." Pwahaha.

And then, here comes my total scary moment of the week:

I also almost died of heart attack when she said, "BLOW. IT. OUT." Pwahahaha. 

Can't wait for episode 4. :D